Hey Amy

If there is one thing you've taught me over the past two years, it's that I shouldn't always make myself smaller than I am.

So, for once, I'm choosing courage over comfort.

It's time to make a bold move.

This one won't take long.

Just promise me one thing.

Read it with your heart.
Not your overthinking brain. ❤️

If someone had told me that one day I'd fly to England, hold your son in my arms, cook dinner for you and leave loving you even more… I'd have laughed.

Life has a funny way of writing stories.

There I am, holding your beautiful son and its insane how much I already love him 🥹

So much more happened in between. I saw you exhausted, overwhelmed, scared.

I whitnessed you becoming a mom.

I saw someone who's able to laugh even when feeling terrible.

And much more... which honestly made me admire you more and more.

When I close my eyes I can remember it all, vividly.

You reading the signs in the castel we visited.

Us enjoying a boat ride in the soft spring sun.

How proud you looked when you introduced me to Theo.

You enjoying the hard shake in Leeds. And how breathtaking you looked that day

The way you nod and close your eyes in response to something I say.

The first time you called me pickle in real life.

The first kiss you gave me and how you hop-skipped back to your car...

Life is short... And we never know what happens and if there is something I have learned from losing people in life and their age (My mom, my stepdad, your colleague), is that we can not know when it ends.

But we can decide what happens in between and some of our next steps.

I don't believe in waiting for perfect times or perfect circumstances...

Sometimes you just have to aim and hope for the best.

So thats why I want to ask you something on the next page...

Give me a second to catch my breath... Because my heart is racing and this shit is hard!

Its the kind of thing where your brain says "I hope I read everything right and I hope this lands well" and "You didn't even have the balls to kiss her! And you think you can do this?"

But Yes, I think I can... so if you have the boobs for it (because you don't have balls), click on the button.